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So for the first time in about a week, I feel ok. I can actually smile and mean it. That is an amazing amazing feeling. I have the best best friends in the whole entire world. It is amazing how you know that they are there no matter what and that they will be there until the end. MUAH! MUAH! MUAH!
This is gonna be a take it easy, lazy, movie watching weekend. Sounds good to me.
It makes me a bit sad...and a bit appreciative of my level of maturity (don't know if that is the exact word I want to use) I guess my grasp on the "tough stuff"...thats not right either, but catch my drift?. I just see so many horrible things going on around me, both close and far, and then I see others who are so caught up on the little things in life that bring em down. My dad has a bunch of books "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff", full of little stories about how people out there have it worse off than you, and I def think I am going to live by that from now on. It just doesn't make much sense to get bent out of shape about things that you can't really control. I mean of course it happens to everyone and I will be the first to say I most likely will post an entry in the future about how my brother did this or that to me that really got under my skin, or my professor gave me a grade I didn't think was fair, nobody is perfect. But, what I am saying is try and focus on the positive. If something happens and things dont go your way, do something about it dont dwell. And most importantly remind yourself that it could always be worse.
I dunno I have a lot swirling around in my mind and that is just one thing that I got out...so thanks.
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| We're the coolest kids and we take what we can get |
[06 May 2008|10:55pm] |
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Paper is done and handed it :o) After I handed it in Tyler pointed out a small mistake I made which now that is all I keep thinking about. Thanks Ty.
Now I have to get my psychology vocab done. Study for my final. And then I am freeeeee for break. I may sign up for an online class for the summer...but one class won't be bad at all. The more credits I get the quicker I can get things going with the transfer process.
I FINALLLLLLY signed up for a gym membership. Woot woot. Cheap cheap cheap AND it has a bunch of perks.
Thank you Danielle :o) We can be workout buddies because I know I am going to need someone to drag my ass in there some days. Summer bod, here I come!
Tomorrow is Wed which means this week i halfway over. Thank god.
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| Suck it |
[06 May 2008|08:31am] |
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This week is already off to a horrible start.
Staying up until 2:30 WORKING ON, NOT FINISHING your English research paper blows. I did so well this semester with balancing things and getting my papers and assignments done on time and most of the time I was ahead of schedule. But, leave it to me to fuck it up when the most important paper, worth a major % of my grade is due. Cuz, that makes sense right?!
I started taking vitamins today because I need something to keep me going. The past few weeks I have been wanting to sleep...like all of the time. Even when I am not the least bit tired, I lay down and am passed out within minutes. Not good. I hope that I get a little bit of energy from it. They taste like poop and I am kinda feeling sick to my stomach, so they better do something!
This week needs to end. NOW! And the weekend needs to come. I am getting my hair done and using my moms last years Mothers Day gift that I gave my mom to get myself a tropical fusion facial at Elizabeth Grady. Sounds delicious. Apparently my mom doesn't like strangers touching her haha. I'm taking her to get her hair done too so at least I know this will be a gift she'll enjoy. On Mother's Day I want to go out to breakfast @ Stephen Anthony's, but they are always so packed and I really don't feel like dropping $100 for my family to eat...How it sucks when your the one making the moneys in the fam. Ooooooh well.
Gotta go and play with dee babee until her nap and then I will have the company of my paper. Ew.
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| Say Hello to Good Times |
[01 May 2008|08:17am] |
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Sabrina the Teenage Witch |
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Last night was amazing.
JEW really blew me away. I knew it was going to be a great show but it really went above and beyond my expectations. They played one great song after another...and the ending was the best. They came back on stage and played "Here You Me", "Futures", and "The Middle", the perfect way to end a pretty perfect show. I have never danced so much or had so much fun at any show EVER. I cannot wait until the next one!
It took my mind off all that makes me blue: School, work, priorities, MY TIRE THAT BLEW OUT 10 MIN BEFORE MY SCHOOL MEETING...but now that it is over...back to the grind.
Work till 6:15
Maybe getting my tire changed.
SCHOOL WORK, SCHOOL WORK, SCHOOL WORK, AND...SCHOOL WORK!!!!
I'm going to treat myself to some pasta from Rosinnis and then go and spend a night in with just me and my books.
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| I should be happy |
[29 Apr 2008|08:07pm] |
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Beautiful music from Into the Wild |
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Because my class got cancelled but I'm not. I looked at my English syllabus today and realized that my research paper is due on the 6th...yes, next week. Bah.
I also have 2 assignments due for Psych on Monday. This weekend is going to give me 0 time to get any of this stuff done because I have 2 Communions to go to and a play on Sunday. I felt like I was so so on top of things but now feel like I am in a bit of a hole. I need to get out quick before I sink in deeper.
I am @ Tylers watching "Into the Wild" for the 2nd time this week (pretty amazing) And now I am going to stop writing and work on one of my many projects.
Wish me luck!
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| Feeling ucky |
[23 Apr 2008|08:07am] |
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I want a new brain.
And new emotions...or no emotions at all.
I know things are going to be different...and that sucks...you say you want to make things stay "the same"...do you mean it? Please mean it.
Blah blah blah.
Today is supposed to be like 81 out and I don't even feel like being out in the sun.
I need to cheer up because this is how things are going to be and I guess noone really has much say.
Man O Man, life is a big confusing shit hole.
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| Happy |
[22 Apr 2008|01:28pm] |
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Earth day.
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| Works Cited pages in MLA format can suck a big one |
[17 Apr 2008|06:27pm] |
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My tummy is crampy.
My nose and head are stuffy.
And I have loads of HW that I need to work on.
Weekend come quick. Pwease?
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| Killing me softly |
[13 Apr 2008|02:15pm] |
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I am beyond annoyed with quite a few things...and this weather is doing nothing but bringing my mood down more.
I have a take home Psych test that I keep putting off and it is do tomorrow :o(
All I want to do is curl up and rent movies and have a lazy rain day before I go back to the grind tomorrow...but school follows me everywhere.
Boo hoo.
Better go start that test...after I watch some more What Not to Wear.
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| I am over my head in shit |
[08 Apr 2008|09:15am] |
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94% on my Psych exam. Pretty happy about that.
A take home test, over 100 definitions and a writing assignment all due by Monday. Not too happy about that.
I have decided that tonight I am going to take a "personal night" and skip English. I already E-mailed him my thesis statement for my research paper and I have not missed a class yet so if he has a problem he can sit on it. It isn't even like I am doing it to have fun...I am going to be doing homework for my other class. I need to get as much Psych as I can out of the way. I feel like I have so much on my plate and if I don't take care of some of it soon I am going to lose it.
Weather permitting I am heading to Six Flags this Saturday for opening day. Wanna come?!
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| The weekend flew by |
[07 Apr 2008|01:01am] |
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Boo hoo.
Had a pretty chill weekend.
Went to a movie.
Had yummy food.
Saw Alicia whom I love so much and will always be my BFF4LYFE!!!
Food shopping.
Ate some cracker/pretzel things.
Now...Sleep.
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| New Kids on the Block to reunite... |
[04 Apr 2008|09:34am] |
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Woot woot.
I remember listening to them with my cousins SOOO long ago. What is up with all these wanna-be come backs?
It is FRIDAY. This week kinda flew by which is nice. I hope this weekend is opposite and goes by slooooooooow, wouldn't that be grand?. I have very limited school work that I HAVE to do...though I may be a good student and go to the library sometime on Sat to work on my research paper.
Kristine is out of the house for a good part of the day and the little ones are sleeping, I am getting my taxes done today FINALLY! which means cash moneys for me :o), and I have yummy left overs to go home to. Today is looking to be very promising.
Happy Friday everyone!
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| HUMP DAY |
[02 Apr 2008|04:40pm] |
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2 more work days left to my week and then free.
School has been riding my ass lately. I have had so much to do in what seems to be so little time. Working full time during the day has its positives, but one very big negative is the lack off free time I have to dedicate to other things that are important,such as escuela.
My English paper had a great outcome: An A.
I started doing some research on my English research paper. I think I have decided or pretty much got pushed onto my 2nd choice topic which is, Body Image Issues and how the media effects us. My teacher seemed to really like the idea so I hope that is a good sign/start.
I took my 2nd psych test on Monday and think I actually may have gotten at least a C on it :Fingers crossed: My teacher told me that I was not graded for 2 of the 3 assignments we have had to do. I lost it because I most certaintly did the assignments and did well on them. I E-mailed them all to her that same night so she better give me full credit. You gotta love teachers who are less responsible than their students. Though I love her, she is just so jolly all of the time.
I have a meeting ALLLL the way at the end of the month with the Health Careers advisor at school, which I just found out about. Don't you think that since I have been telling my advisor for the past year that I am really thinking about nursing as a career they would have led me in that direction?? Mmm, So we will see where things go from there. I just feel like I am going going going and showing positive results as far as grades go but at the same time feel like there is a huge hole that I cannot jump over no matter how hard I try. I NEED HELP.
Tonight I am working a litle bit late because Kristine who was supposed to come back from her business trip this afternoon informed me that there was a problem with the plane and she is delayed. Scarey.
Then...HOME. Yay. Krysta is going to come over and we are going to be girls and watch movies, Americas Next Top Model, and catch up. I havn't seen that biatch in so long.
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[30 Mar 2008|11:06pm] |
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All of my bills for the month of April payed for, and still money to spare.
GO ME!
More studying...:o(
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| I am done |
[27 Mar 2008|02:11pm] |
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With optimism.
It does nothing but make it hurt worse in the end.
I feel like a failure.
I need good plans this weekend to make me smile.
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| I gots me an |
[26 Mar 2008|03:55pm] |
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A on my paper. Hip hip hooray!
My teacher (who usually doesn't see anything from anyone else's point of view) gave me a compliment, and said I really deserved the grade. I am happy.
Hopefully this is a sign of things to come.
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| My luck |
[25 Mar 2008|04:03pm] |
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Is shit.
And needs to get better.
Last week I lost one of my W2 forms which meant I had to cancel my tax appointment. Bah. I need money so so so badly, especially now.
I was AGAIN absent minded and left my wireless card @ my aunts house so I had to go out of my way to pick it up which wouldn't have been so bad if Brooke hadn't puked everywhere 3 times.
Then I went to my house for a minute and as I am turning into my drive way my wheel locks up and I slam into my rock wall. Yeah. Real cute dent added to the ugly scratches that were there previously.
This is the week I am supposed to be hearing about the nursing program...if this week continues to go the way it is I don't think I want to get the results.
English class tonight to get back THEE paper. The paper he tore apart and basically called horrible. Bah, screw him. I deserve a really good grade on it but I am expecting nothing greater than a B.
The rest of the week is up in the air,
I NEED the copy of my W2 form to come in the mail...NOW. I am thinking that I will use some of the money to fix up my car. It really wasn't a problem before because it was just some chipped paint and some scratches, but now it is just an eye sore.
I need a turn-around.
Please?
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| Long weekend :o) |
[20 Mar 2008|04:29pm] |
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Psyched!!!
This week has been ucky mucky. I have been down and out pretty much every day and need a little pick me up.
Tonight I am going to Maine!!! York, which is my favorite. Spontanious, yes...but fun, indeed.
Tomorrow I am heading up to the Cape. I cannot wait to see the little ones and give them their Easter goodies! Saturday we are coloring Easter eggs :o) After the kiddies go to bed we are going to hide them in the yard for them to find in the morning.
Well I am off to fold laundry, wait about an hour and a half and then I am off for a weekend of fun...hopefully :o)
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| I just smiled |
[17 Mar 2008|01:30pm] |
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Amazingly.
I was talking to my aunt and she told me a story about this morning.
My cousin Alex: "Happy Patricks Day Mom"
Aunt Tricia: "You too Alex, but it is Saint Patricks Day"
Alex: "OK mom, but when is it going to be Spongebobs Day?"
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| It's just one of those....Months?? |
[17 Mar 2008|12:45pm] |
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Ever have one of those days where you just feel awful? Both mentally and physically? That has been me for really about the past month. I am going to go on in this entry and some of these things I am going to "complain" about may seem petty but they have really been bothering me.
I have been super stressed out about work/school. I just want everything to work out well. I took my nursing exam last Thursday and I felt like I was taking the SAT's all over again. The English part was probably the easiest test I have ever ever taken, but the Math is what did me in. You need to get a 50% or better on both the Math and English...Easy right? That is why I am so down on myself. I am so afraid that I did not even reach the requirements for the math portion. I want this so bad...and the anticipation and nervousness is proving that more and more. I sent in all of my application and have been looking into Financial Aid and some scholarships so I am so ready. I just have to keep up the wait for about two more weeks. Uck.
Another thing that has been upsetting me is my lack of money to spend on myself. It's not that I don't have it...I just don't spend it. Weird, I know. I used to spend money on myself all the time (when I didn't have it) and now I just feel like I'm not worth it. I have these bills that I have to pay and those just overwhelm me to the point where I get so focused on them and only them.
Another thing is my appearance. How lame is that? I just feel so gross about myself. I hardly ever put makeup on anymore because I don't like to look at myself in the mirror. My face is breaking out so bad and nothing is helping. Like I said really petty stuff here, but it is making me feel horrible. Well to help (hopefully) this problem and my problem I mentioned above I just ordered this acne treatment from Sephora that has gotten amazing results. My fingers are crossed.
I have decided to start running when I have some free time. I went for a 30 minute run yesterday and it made me feel a little bit better. I ran about 2 miles. Go me. I hope I keep this up.
I need to eat and work on my paper before the kids wake up.
Sorry for babbling and being so superficial...everyone is allowed that once in awhile.
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